let's bring it back to where it hurts

There is so many ways to suck! I've been sucking ass lately. I feel like I have the whole world nailed down and now I'm bored. I need to write things down more.

So I'm going to set a goal, something simple.

I'm going to say that I need to post everyday. But everyday I have to pick something about myself that I have to ridicule. Do this and then find a way to empower myself by writing about something that's going well.
I want to cause stress on my weakness's I want to be stronger there. Let's try to break down the walls and smash this ego.

Here we go

I want to say that I have a weak lower abdominal, but I'm weak in lots of places and one of my biggest fears is letting my mom and my little boy down.

I'm looking at my life and thinking about the fact that I've more or less been living off my mom. I pay some bills, but not consistently. I've been making money, but not more and more. I haven't grown even though I have had the room and the potential too.

I feel like I need to expose this weakness in me and this is the way! I'm going to start talking shit about myself and that's ok.

I have lot's of things about myself that I hate and I'm not even a hater! This is Awesome! I think the fact that I'm going to be putting myself out there makes me stronger. I need strength in all these weak areas of my existence. I have this future that I'm going forward into and there are ways to be here in the now to move forward toward where I need to be.

I've been stuck yeah, but to give myself a break one of the reasons that I'm so settled is because I think I'm a caring dad.

So there'll be more to me coming.

Tomorrow I'm suppose to have another post and this should be happening for the next year. The posts should very and I'm going to start a site.

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