Don't watch me do that

'swiping right,

I swiped on a dudes wife tonight, Hot as fuck and I almost got to bang her but I bitched out ...


She was this cute little mom of 2,

"I love my man, and he wants me to fuck someone and film it.' she told me nervously.

I was like "really, Im down" so I strapped my gear together to do a POV porn.

Fuck Ive been shooting for years never though of doing a porno.

This woman was beautiful. Top tear and taken care of, this wasn't a trampy whore, she was a business lady.

She invited me into her bedroom and then called her dude on Facetime.

I mean I was willing to talk to him but I wasn't down to bang his wife on Live camera.

I tried for a second tho, to run through the scenario that he offered and I couldn't get my shit to work.

I needed to connect with her. I could tell she loved him, and that I was involved something pretty deep.

"We've been to couples counselling about this, this has been months in the making" she explained to me,  as I stared at her sitting there, tits out, beautiful,  I was jerking off.  I wanted my body to let this happen, it wasn't having it tho.

I felt bad for under achieving, she was so hot.

He's a lucky fucker I thought to myself, and she was listening to everything he was telling her to do. She was so connected to him. It was strange but it was also endearing.

There were elements to the whole that I don't think I fully understand and Ill see what this does to me.

It was expansive and scary, I think it was ok tho.

For now

if anything i bitched out.

I think it's cause I wasn't open about it with my lover

I rushed home to talk to her about it.

She knows me. When I'm with her I get excited,

I never have the problem that I had tonight. She's beautiful too.

"I did it because I wanted to see if I would be able to do it.!!" I told her


" You weren't" she said.







Tinder ...

Chernoble

How to start? It's a question we all ask. No one knows where to start, not until they've failed. Failure is usually where you start. You'll know know that if you've failed and gotten up to try again then it's within your abilities to try again.

 Most of us don't have the balls to fail. We're all looking for that success, that easy money.

I'm not so sure people find that easy money. We're all after another persons dream. Well, not all of us. There is a lot of people though.

So how do you get someone to be motivated enough to fail? Be willing to fail yourself.

That's a huge issue, today's leaders never fail. Well not until they fail everything and there's nuclear war.

Dropping in the club

Needing to play with the team. It's easy to say, but then you remember that you're an all star and the rest of the team is a bunch of rookies.

What am I to do?

I'm willing to pass back to the keeper, he can punt that ball back into play. Things are bound to get interesting. This city is somewhere new. There's so much to look forward to. I'm interested in making a podcast and making a movie. Totally do able. I'll have them intertwined. The movie is going to be urban underground on the Job, but nightlife edition. There's been some drama involved in the industry over the last several months and it's changed the way we see stuff too.

So I need to also do a camera drive and find more photographers.

That's easy, and so is writing this blog everyday. Not all glitchy like I have been.

Pencils for the internet






There is so many kids out there yearning to learn how to create beautiful captivating images so they can publish them on their Facebook. A Cameras life is not like it was 10 or 20 years ago. People are taking more photos then ever, people are looking through photographs at an astronomical rate. Inspiration comes from sharing images appropriately and in the right context. Success is on the internet, and cameras are designed to guide us through our journey.

Twenty years ago the internet existed but not everyone was on it. In 1996 there was a small chance you owned a digital camera. It probably wasn't very good though. Ten Yeas ago the internet was becoming main stream, with the advent of the smart phone and Facebook cameras became a basic commodity.  That's changed the way we take photos. Now there is such a thing as a selfie. The internet has given the camera a new canvas.

More and more kids these days are expressing themselves over the internet. Not only are they, expressing themselves over the internet, they are also connecting with people from all around the world in an instant. We're all connected and our cameras are the best vehicle to express ourselves authentically in real time. There is lots of sharing going on, like never before. Understanding personal boundaries in an online context is integral in creating positive outcomes. Cameras make it easy to share things on the web. Kids should know how to use a camera.

So who wants to know how to take your photos to the next level?

The answer is, we all do. Can you imagine what photography is going to be like in the next 10 to 20 years. Its crazy to think about what people are going to get to see. What kids are going to watch. Its important to understand what we're seeing, it's important to understand what's appropriate. There is a demand for cameras, cause kids love to see.

Wortely

Warts, like what the fuck, warts. What's it suppose to mean? Asking myself that question has not helped, I'll just have to ask the internet!! Hey internet! Are you listening?

There's companies showing interest in me! That's awesome because I have no where to go but up!
I can not wait to meet with more people to learn about what there is to do in my field.

I'm interested in recruiting more photographers and building a community that I control and maintain. To do so I need skilled photographers. How did I become skilled?
 It's funny to think about, but photography has come slowly to me. Image manipulation, fuck, that's coming slower.

Someone tried to seduce me today! Now that's awesome. It's weird, I don't know about the relationship, don't think it could handle me fucking another person. It's weird cause I never want to write about this shit.  Gotta start.

So I realized I'm worth a bunch of money.  I want to build communities for money. That's what I want to do. I am a global citizen that wants to build a better world for tomorrow. I think everyone can drive a Porsche because I want to drive one!

and that's ok.

I want to drive all sorts of beautiful vehicles. Fuck cars I want houses, and land for my babies and their grand kids. Why's it so hard to think about exactly what you need. You need to dream big to think right.
I don't want to fuck my ex girl friend. I fell off my bike last night, in front of the lil man! And he was embarrassed, I hurt my hand.

Energy and success pull us together, but in the long term it's never everyone that gets to reap the benefits.

It's the person in control of the game.   

Cunt

Not everyone is going to see things. It's funny how I could handle the most nerve racking situations sometimes. I get intimidated.
I do.

I am totally not ashamed of it. There are those who run when they're scared. I don't run, I'm more of a "deer in headlights" kind of guy. I just want people around me to succeed, that's how I'm going to succeed. If I'm all around the stuff I'll grow. I remember having people around me who pulled at me. I was never able to manage finishing anything I wanted.

I don't want to be that to others.

Make sure you're not either.

Bitch

trying to stay focused

God has given us so many excuses, but instead of doing what he pleads for us to do in our own minds we do the opposite. That's the balance, but there is harmony for those who listen.
I can take amazing photographs and shoot incredible footage, but it's not where I'm destined to be. I think I'll always be a photographer, but there is more then meets the eye.

Why is it so important to share with others? It just is, and really sharing with others helps justify all those times you took something just for you. We all do it, take a little more. That's what makes our days that much better. That double double, or that extra beer after the game, the car we drive. They are all those little extras we take for granted. Almost everything we have is taken for granted, it's a part of our culture, just like that double double or that third Canadian. That doesn't mean we can't give to others. It's actually motivation to change things for people who don't have the same comforts as us. That's how buying someone a coffee, or giving them a ride can change your life.

We all take what we need and more. It's nature, and it happens. We envy those who have the most, the CEOs, the Celebrities,  the athletes. They all had to get to where they were by working hard and in one way or another by being aggressive. CEOs do corporate take overs, celebrities are making pornography, and competition is at the core of athletics. To rise to the top, you gotta fight to win.